Saturday,19th December, Sydney, 08.00 pm

This shall be my final blog for 2009. I start by greeting all my readers a very Happy, Prosperous and Peaceful New Year.

This year to me shall remain incomplete without some of you. I look back at the turn of events, it soaks me within and I must confess it is in complete contrast to my previous year. I wish to mark every memorable event deep, lock it and seal it within me so that I can cherish it lifelong.

I met some wonderful people from 64 to 21 years young at heart. Some loved me so much that tears came rolling down.....their deep sunk eyes quietly communicating they need me along. Some met and left back to their home countries never to return again but the moments spent with them remain truly special. Some left for travel but unfortunately I will not be  seeing them again as I am headed out of Australia .Some are  my best friends who are always here, sharing their minds and smiles whenever I meet or see them.

Most of these gifted people tried to understand me- some in depth, some superficially, some with curiosity and some with passion. I will not like to forget anyone- there were moments of joy spent by me either as friends, colleagues or companion who made my life better, gave me warmth and comfort away from home.

As I sit in my room feeling the breeze brush across my face, I am filled with nostalgia. There is no better way to explain life than above. People come and go but I must confess I feel hurt, pain and anguish in making a transition. I do not have millions of dollars in Australia but I have relation with all of you.....that is something I can never buy with money.

 I so much hope I did justice to everyone I met but then the fear creeps in maybe I did not. I want to deeply apologize if ever for a second, I misunderstood your thought or I assumed your decisions or most importantly if I failed to acknowledge any gesture from your side......that was unfair from my side and I shall like to take this blame on myself rather than come up with any lame excuse.

Finally – Wherever I am, whatever age I maybe in, even if we are not able to communicate in this hectic pace of life- I will continue to love you deep within and please be kind enough to pop in a question after 20 years- “AJ, do you recall me” as my answer will be “Yes, I not only recall you but miss you always- thanks for coming in my life in 2009 as you made it so very wonderful by your presence”.

Love you more than you imagine.

Yours forever

AJ

Sunday,29th November, Sydney, 11.47 am

It is a warm, windy Sunday morning today. I have nothing urgent to attend so I reckon it is the best opportunity to share some thoughts. Today some shades of grey in my writing for a change.

The changing facets of relationships with time surprise me. How I wish to hold on to a relationship when it is blissful, wonderful, charming, adorable and when it is everything that my world comprises of........why can we not keep a relation same and constant forever? I hate to think or dream that two people so close like chalk and cheese, hand in glove can just walk past in front of each other acting as strangers....things happen but then I wish we all can work out a solution before it is too late......a bed of roses always have thorns - isn’t it?  There shall be ups and downs, consents and arguments, pleasure and pain, hurt and happiness- just like different seasons in a year but then we see all together and hopefully withstand them evolving as stronger and better individuals.

When relations break, they hurt a lot. There is no sound to the world, as if they care but inside one is left shattered, lonely and weak. How much we hope that the person calls or sends some message and we can quickly make up- maybe that is the same thinking on other side and eventually both keep waiting for things to happen.

Hopefully, the ego’s can rest aside. A new beginning, a fresh start, a renewed confidence is all that takes to know nothing is lost....so to all those people including myself who think Oh, I wish we could have spoken more and maybe held on to our partner, our lover, our friend, our relative– just stop thinking and connect.....after all – it takes a second to be back in happiness but it takes ages to heal a wound.

Life is about building relationships.

Much love

AJ

Sunday, 18th October, Sydney, 05.00 pm

My warm welcome to my readers.  Greetings on the beginning of Indian New Year and I hope that this new start brings peace, prosperity and happiness to one and all.

Work caught up with me making my weekends seem like weekdays. It rendered me incapable to assimilate my thoughts, thus causing my absence. It was a pleasant awakening phone call by Miss Bryant, urging me to write something and reminding me of the fact that it’s been long awaited. I am indeed more than happy to oblige.   Thank you Lee- Anne for your kindness and I also wish to apologize to the ones silently waiting for my new updates.

Life is about transition and moving ahead. Transition of learning new things every passing second, gaining experience from various facets of life and pondering back at the opportunities grabbed or missed.  We all learn the hard way but let us not forget to smile and rejoice the present in quest of our future dreams. This moment shall not return so make the most of it. I do agree that it is easier said than done but then it does not hurt to try—simple examples teach us a lot, does a honey bee ever give up from searching nectar from flower or does an ant ever stop work no matter how long they take to build its ant hill?

It is entirely upon us to how we shape our lives. Make it honey dipped and trust me you will love life passionately- take it as a challenge if odds are against you and I am sure there will be enjoyment, interest and satisfaction when fighting against trying circumstances.  Don’t give up as it is too easy. We must know that sometimes in life results are inconsequential but attempt mandatory. The Bhagavat Gita so aptly stated – Do your Karma!!!!

I keep this blog short as I must return to work. I will get back whenever there is a window of opportunity to reconnect with you.

Much love

AJ

Saturday, 3rd October, Sydney, 12.47 PM

I share my joy and happiness in being back with you. I chuckle to myself -How quickly time flies….I render my sincere apologies if you were waiting for an update earlier…..I did not want to write anything half heartedly. I was torn between work and sleep, rushing in my mind doing daily chores, so I preferred to wait for the right moment.

The initial euphoria of reading my writing has somewhat settled now. The first week had many people checking my blog but I would like to believe now it’s only me with some selected few. I remain deeply obliged for your support and encouragement and I must confess I always look forward to your elite company.

Let us drift into our ocean of thoughts where we dip with pleasure, freefall like bungee jumping and let the adrenaline of blood rush in us as we are opening ourselves to our soul……it gives me a kick and high exactly like one gets from smoking marijuana or drinking alcohol…..yes it’s the moment we connect wishfully and wilfully and it’s a pleasure to do so.

Money makes us do crazy things. I always thought it is means to fulfil desire but these desires never cease. Spending money gives us momentarily relief of satisfaction but I wonder how much it is linked to happiness……we assume money will make us happy but is it so? In fact as I see it- Money tempts us to make our desires to reality in shortest possible time by reducing our level of patience…….watch out for catch 22 situation…..how we prioritize our choice of desires is crucial. These choices are directly proportional to how much we wish to earn money.

Also, let’s accept and acknowledge the fact that there is no correlation between education and money. The best of brains may not build wealth equivalent or greater than their counterpart’s with similar intelligence. Generating wealth remains a mystery and no one knows who will strike gold at what time of their lives.

So, let’s keep it simple, savour the lovely moments of this life without career being the prime concern. Let us try to spend more time with our near and dear ones. After all, they love us unconditionally and I wish we all can hold on to this priceless treasure.

Take it easy; things will work out better sooner than later.

Love you with passion
AJ

Saturday, 19th September, Sydney 10 PM

Perfection is a simple word but carries so much weight. I learn and try to overcome my deficiencies with each passing day but being close to perfect is miles away. Flash back to past and I compare present , I feel I have become more mature, calm and understanding but its wishful thinking- I know it is not enough. Every day is a new leaf so I must be better prepared to face this every changing life.

Precision to detail in every action I perform remains my ardent desire but I often find myself lacking below my set standards. I often justify by telling my mind its tiredness which got better of me and has led me in doing things casually but deep inside I know it is just an excuse. Every action has a reaction, it is a reflection of our personality, projection of our thinking and I wish to be better in it.

Time is another thing which flies more quickly than we imagine. Our busy life keeps us preoccupied hardly giving us a chance to sit back and look at past. I was fortunate enough to scroll some of the snaps in my laptop, clicked and uploaded at various moments in Australia. I was just hit by the thought of how much time has passed……gosh I say to myself- we were all so young, impossible to hide age I guess.

Finally, never give up in life. Life is like a roulette machine – we are spinning in it. No one knows when the jackpot is hit and we get what we dreamt for. Success is a mystery lady…..she comes to people who have the 777 combination of factors of luck, hard work, fate so keep playing this game of life with enthusiasm, belief and faith that our chance will come sooner than later.

Next weekend I shall be with you again.

Much Love to u
AJ

Saturday, 19th September, Sydney 5.00 PM

Writing makes me converse with myself and I hope it does the same for you.Unleashing my thoughts to you- I muster courage to share about life and relationships in this blog.

The walk of life is lonely. I must confess loneliness is often underrated. It is considered as a demon whereas I feel independence to live life at our terms and conditions is a luxury, available to a limited few. Choice of relationship is more complicated than it appears. It does not take time to be someone from anyone in a relation but the failure to weigh future consequences may prove to be fatal. Few have the patience and stamina to hold relations with the same tenderness and sweetness as before- lets put the blame on human nature-“ When we get something, we lose its importance” It is an easy escape route but then the person in relation is not an object but someone with feelings. I can not stop admiring our parents in this respect who set exceptional examples to prove yes, if we love someone, we never get bored and enjoy living life to the fullest.
There is nothing called a “Perfect Life”- To me, differences can be resolved by talking. Listen to others with an open mind and support your ideas with logical reasoning. Differences are bound to be there but ironing them out – unlocking the tight knots with care should make any relation stronger than ever before.

We shall always meet people. Some will like us, few with love us and many will differ from us. I wish I can hold on to the ones who liked me for a split second. At times, we all tend to be so casual blaming work and money as occupiers that we give no time to nurture that beautiful relation.

Cherish every relation, do the best you can- thank almighty as you are lucky enough to have someone liking you. Respect parents as we are indebted to them for our upbringing.

Take your leave now to be back in future.
Luv u
AJ

Saturday,19th September, Sydney 9.40 am

My warm welcome to the avid readers, keen followers and the first time visitors to my sea of thoughts, .My first blog evoked reactions from people worldwide which has surprised me. I wish to express my sincere gratitude to all of you who took time to read my thoughts.

Thank you Nitin for that special email stating you found my blog inspirational. You also became the first follower to my blog which is highly appreciated and acknowledged by me. Thanks Akshay for being a quiet follower and reader. Thank you Nina, Manmeet for liking my writing. Thanks to Helen Moses, who took print outs of my blog to read them in her leisure time sitting in PNG. My special thanks to Xiaoqing, who tried her best to access my blog sitting in China despite blog spot being banned. I convey my regret as I did not have any clue about that so I shall try my best to email you my updated blog with pleasure. Thanks Surbhi for your fondness and thanks Shwetangi on your feedback about my thoughts.

I am fully aware that many of you as readers have the talent backed by the knowledge to write better than me. I hope my choice of words can convey and connect to you somewhere somewhat in some manner. Your deep affection and love about what transpires in my life is worth its weight in gold for me. It is a treasure which I can not quantify. I must confess such adulation is alien to me and I am humbled by it.

I hope to instil your renewed interest every week by my honest writing though I do realize it may be a difficult task. I am reminded of popular saying-“It is easy to reach the top but very hard to maintain that position”

Thoughts shall follow in my next writing.
Love
AJ

Sunday, 13th September, Sydney 4.10 pm

I must confess I am bitten by the sweet temptation of posting another thought, so I do it now. This shall be the last one for today till I sit down again and share my next random thought with you- I do not know how soon I will post in future......it can be any day or the next weekend.....

Giving you my idea about Australian culture.......two things which are different here from the rest of the world. We ask " How are you doing?" and the most typical Aussie reply will be " Not too bad". Secondly we address friends not as buddies or dudes but as mates so it is " Cheers mate". I share and accept my incapability to adapt to it. It maybe due to my English learning since childhood where we are taught British english so I am stuck to " I am fine or I am very well thank you" and friends are buddies for me.

Another observation is the high consumption of 3 things in people living in Aussie land-energy drinks, mints and cigarettes. This is complete contrast to Asian countries. I often see boys, girls, men and women gulping energy drinks and these energy drinks beat the cola sales anytime. I curiously pick up one can and notice it contents- The can proudly says " High Caffeine Content"......add to them the coffees that one consumes in office which is again caffeine......I say to myself wow, thats a lot of caffeine to keep buzzing.............. Cigarettes are more smoked because of addiction than liking which is understandable and popping mints is much needed after a fag.

My flashing thought...... I wish I had some percentage stake in any of these three products and I will be rolling in more money than I can ever imagine.

However, back to reality - ifs and buts do not make a life but lets not stop dreaming. Unless we dream we can never strive to make Impossible into I m possible. Failures in life should not break us but toughen us up to withstand any storm for future.

Lots of love

AJ

Sunday, 13th Sept, 2009, Sydney 9.16 AM

I take a step forwardin my awareness towards technology by start to blog.......a unique concept religiously followed by most celebrities and people who have the art of expressing their mind with such creativity with amazes me, the playful use of words make a simple expression so beautiful.......I hope I can do justice to anyone who reads my blog as I wish to keep it simple and honest.

Its a clear blue sky which I see from my room. Projection of a warm day by the weather forecasters who happen to be far more accurate than my imagination. Weekends are the time I wish to detox, catch sleep, ponder at life, take a break from the rush of weekdays. It is like a deep breath of fresh air where I ask my mind and soul to take it easy and not always fighting against time which I usually do all week.

There is some beauty in watching nature, in feeling the breeze, in watching the waves splashing against the rocks or just taking a stroll down the road not knowing the destination.

Each of us has our own ways of living. We derive satisfaction from our individual interests and tastes. Some get a kick by meeting people, some by a simple cup of coffee, to some sleep is the best whereas some may prefer just heading out to the movies.

I think over time I have been more observant than expressive. I enjoy watching people, their smiles and how we all intrepret the same thing differently. I always wish to support my thinking by logic than my heart which I hope is a better way of living . Some thoughts which always keep coming back to me are " We should carry our own baggage", " Life is an experience so live it",
" The time of tide will change, it never remains the same so do not let present drain you".
Finally, in good times we will forget the pains of past so be patient in life and God shall do justice to your wait because " When it rains, it pours"

Much love
AJ